If you feel stuck, yet you are not willing to move anywhere at all, then why are you complaining?
I am not the best emotional supporter. I admit that much. I am more of a problem solver, I think. I apologize for my no filter and brutally honest comment. I no longer try to please anyone or connect with you when we have no connection at all. I no longer try to fit in a box that is not for me.
It is actually hilarious because those who have known me for so long do not really know me at all. It is true that I am a complicated person even I, myself occasionally do not know who I really am at times. However, I will give you that much that I wear a mask almost always. It is easier to appear energetic and positive than to explain why I am quiet. I prefer to show the happy me over the gloomy self. The reason being that I do not know how to explain what is in my head at all. And, it works! Isn’t that is the most amazing thing ever?
All you see is the glorious me, the successful and on top, all the time and you came to the conclusion that I have zero issues and struggle. First and foremost, why don’t you go back and check my social media account? I work behind the stage. I do not receive anything and be praised for anything at all. I shared little things with you because I consider you as my close ones. Have I ever told you about my mental breakdowns? When my knees hit the floor and I blame myself so hard for my failure because I also feel like I am the most useless person on this planet?
“But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah…” – Human by Christina Perri
Therefore, when you reach for my help, I can only tell you that things will pass. Stop blaming yourself. Success does not come right away. You feel like you can never reach your goal, but you can. The time does not come for you to reap your reward at the moment, but that does not mean that it will never arrive. Get up and work harder. Stop being so negative. You are still young and you have a lot of time to figure out your next game plan, so stop weeping over little obstacles and stand tall. You feel like you are carrying the weight of the world, but what are you carrying actually? Everything is all in your head. You made these all up yourself. Why are you looking at others and comparing yourself with them? It is entirely okay to break down and cry, but be sure to get up and move away from those ridiculous thoughts your mind made of. If you want something, go for it. Set goals. Look for ways to achieve them. Do one thing at a time. Never be afraid to step outside of your comfort zone. If you fail once, get up twice.
I believe in you.
Let’s win this game of life together, hand in hand. 🙂
Jot it down in your journal as a reminder. It helps. 🙂