To whom it may concern,
Or maybe… it’s just what I need right now.
Your speed does not matter. As long as you are moving forward. As long as you do not give up. Resting does not mean you stop.
It honestly is disheartening to see everyone around you is doing so well and there you are flopping and struggling to be equivalent.
Darling, you have come so far in such a short period of time. Within just six months after your darkest era, you have come out of your way doing the things you would have never ever done if you decided to end your life then and there. You have been pushing yourself nonstop and working your butt off to achieve what you have today. Do you think anybody can do that? You dealt with depression and anxiety all alone without telling anyone. When your mind wasn’t the brightest, you still woke up and went to work anyway. It was astonishing that you received a really good result when all you had in you back then was just suicidal thought. You had been fighting so hard in a year and now you fell behind, so all you are doing now is blaming yourself why aren’t you as great as the person you were during that one year period. I totally understand you never ever want to go back to be a failure again because you had been shinning so bright which was unbelievable but you did.
Relax, baby girl! It’s impossible to be on top all the time. You’re getting tired. Even though you feel like you didn’t work hard enough, you did. The definition of hard work and being successful are different for everyone. You are not the same person you were yesterday nor three years ago… or maybe four. You want to achieve much more and test yourself to see how much more you can take, but it is getting unhealthy now. Learn to relax. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Just because someone else is running does not mean you have to run, too. Having a rival or idol is good. It motivates you to be productive. You want to stand beside them, yet each and every individual is not the same. We have our own strengths and weaknesses. There is no such thing as perfect. You cannot be excellent at everything. Just continue walking even if it takes you longer than others, for, in the end, we will reach the finish line anyway. Don’t be insecure about your own weakness. You, not being good at something, does not translate to stupidity.
This journey is entirely yours. No one can judge. No one can have a comment on it. Their words are totally irrelevant. It is a long, long, long adventure. Though, short if you lose focus. Time flies by quickly. But, never too late for a beginning and start over. Keep moving forward whether you are walking or deciding to run for once. Stop and breathe when you feel overloaded. As long as you don’t go backward, it is okay. You have come a long way, my dear.
I am so proud of you.
Much love and respect. ❤
You’re such a wonderful being. xxx
The one who cares and fully understand