It has been a long while since our last girl talk. How are my females doing? Anything exciting happened over the weekend? I just got back from my excursion trip to Everland. ~ It was really fun, but also a short trip. *insert crying face* We departed at 8:00A.M and returned at 4:00P.M. 😦 Although, good memory indeed.
The reason I shared this with you guys is certainly you could catch up with me and there was a good conversation I would like to bring up here. I have made a few friends and I hanged out with one of them because we got separated from the others along the way. While we were waiting in line for the Thunder Fall ride (you can check it out at the Everland website), we started talking about boyfriend kind of topic; as there is PDA everywhere in South Korean, so beware single people! She said that she has always thought she is ugly. I was shook. I know I don’t have that much confidence in me, but there are days where I feel myself. To put yourself down for so long, how could you live with that? I don’t think I am the prettiest girl out there, but I never put myself down to the rock bottom. Yes, I do feel self-cautious. That is right, I do wear makeup to enhance myself both on the outside and on the inside. I like dressing up because it makes me feel better even though I know confidence is when you start embracing yourself and accepting your flaws. That is what I have been learning each and every day and I see improvement.
Male or female does not matter. We all have our insecurities. Now stop for a second and tell me three things you love about yourself both the appearance and then personality. Have you ever watched a YouTube video tag called, “My Perfect imperfection?” It is about talking about three things you dislike (would like to improve) about yourself and finish on a good note with three things you like about yourself. It might sound taboo and cringe; however, it works. You will feel a little better. In addition, it’s not just talking about the things you would like to upgrade, it is that you have to work on it for real. A little day by day and you will get there. To be a better version of you. You don’t have to be perfect as perfect does not exist. It is to be the best of who we are. To be a decent human being. For the world? Indeed, the world will be a better place if everyone can be kind and understanding. Nevertheless, it is for yourself. As a person, you do the the things you are doing everyday to feel good and satisfied, correct? Well, it sounds simple and stupid, yet it is the only conclusion I can come up with. That is my opinion and like it or not, it is true to me.
I have been trying to not care about what anybody thinks of me, still it does get to me occasionally. Like this one time, I was wearing sweatpants and tank top out and about only to come back to the dormitory and some of the girls stared at me weirdly. I was embarrassed and mad because in my head I was screaming, “What’s wrong with sweatpants? It is comfy. I like wearing it and this is who I am. Why do you have to look at me like that?” I am an insecure person and during that time my self-esteem shoot down to almost negative twenty five.
What can I say? When you learn to accept the good and the bad in you, it gets greater without you noticing it. You will regain confidence. On the other hand, it does not mean there will be days you feel a little low and it is okay. You can never be on the top forever with no day off. Don’t blame yourself over it. Head up or your crown will fall, king and queen. You are beautiful and we know it. Share love and kindness always. ❤
Talk to you next Monday!
You are all one of a kind.