I apologize for being MIA lately. It’s not that I gave up blogging. It’s just a lot of things have been occurring in my life constantly. Final exam. (Can you believe my freshman year in college had ended already? It felt like yesterday I stepped my foot into that university.) I’ve been working on something important in my life. (My first journey of being independent. That’s all I can give you for now.) Family. Social life, I guess? A relationship, kind of? (No, I’m still as single as ever.) Just a lot on my plate right now. Not going to lie, I’m very stressed. I almost went back to deep depression state again. Or maybe I already am in one. I really wanted to post something every Monday as usual, but I couldn’t get my head around; Not to mention, it was my final exam week. I promised I was trying my best to organize and plan everything through. I guess it didn’t work out.
Okay, this was a draft I wrote as well and while typing it out I remember something. I let you guys in a bit on this.
So, a guy and I talked about planning and winging things. Getting to know each other I supposed? I used to be just like him, taking things on as it comes, you know confidence? However, I am now the planner type. I plan everything. Presentation. Going out. Future. Life. Literally almost everything I can organize. Funny how it is, not everything goes as plan. Just like this blogging. And how I ran into him at my usual cafe, again. Never mind, that was the last time I ran into him there. *insert confusing emoji*
Going back to this blog post.
Instead of being in an author-block mode, I have been too overflown with ideas. I couldn’t decide a specific thing to cover until now or maybe not as you can see this post is all over the place. It’s currently half past midnight and I am drafting this blog post so I can upload in the morning. I am going to be busy again tomorrow morning. Thus, I should be sleeping. I just have this spark and I am really hoping this one is interesting enough to read. For everything that keeps popping up in my life at the moment, I want to share with someone. You, who have always been reading my blog, I am grateful that there is someone out there probably is wasting their precious time to read my wild thoughts. Thank you! This blog is out there because I want to share my experience and lesson I learn each and every day.
Therefore, what is it I have learned that today title is “Why you should not rush”? Well, at the end of the year 2017, I was always charging out of frustration. I just wanted to do something. I wanted to move, run away, shine, and all that jazz. My intention back then was all a grief. It is all so blurry now. Day by day, one thing fell into its place after another. When I am a bit calmer, I see another tiny piece of the puzzle fitting in its home. The mystery is still unresolved, but the timing feels a bit soothing and better in general. It just feels more correct than what I planned in my head. For every person, you’ve encountered brought with them either a lesson or a blessing. There’s always a reason why you met someone. It can be depressing without knowing their agenda at all. I am a huge believer in whoever is meant for you will always gravitate back to you no matter how far they wander. It is strange how this time I am the one who will be leaving. If they still remember me or want to keep in touch with me, that’s wonderful. Although for now, it is just silent. Also, there is also a reason why you have a strong urge to start something. When you get the feeling on working on a project, just do it. Follow your intuition, it is going to bring you somewhere I promise. Keep persevering. Even if you failed, it is just not the right timing. Never get discouraged. I have been there. Success only comes to those who proceed to hustle despite the many failures. When your time to rise comes, you will understand why it didn’t work out back then.
Anyway, I will talk to you all again next time. Love and miss. xx
If you have any questions or want to share your experience, comment down below.